NOTE about this entry: Although The "C" Blog is about the book and film project mainly, I've decided to share what goes on behind the scenes as well, including how I'm feeling and thinking. My hope is that others will see what it is like as the project continues to grow, and hopefully show the real man behind the project. I hope you enjoy reading more about me.

Realizing that over the years I haven't always been one to stick with anything for very long - boyfriends, jobs, businesses, family, homes, etc. - I hadn't known the truth of what my friends believed about me. I know I've moved a lot, quit jobs, left lovers, and got rid of businesses I owned all because I wanted freedom, but does this mean that when I take on a new project that my friends cannot support me. It seems that way lately, because when I talk about my current project they all seem to just give me lip service, not genuine support. I've been keeping it all inside until today when my sister sent me an email.

Most people have never understood who I am, some never tried, and yet, can I blame them when there have been times in my life that I didn't understand what my motivations were. During my 5 months of backpacking through Central America something changed in me, or was it that I rediscovered the strengths I had when younger but that had been lost because of so many perceived failures. Whatever it was, I'm now at a point in my life where I really know myself, am willing to stand up and do something again, to open up to new friendships, and to a point where I've accepted the person I am, including all of the negative (or perceived negative) aspects of my life.

Few, if any, have ever seen the many nights of tears, the long sleepless nights questioning my very existence, or known the troubles of my mind as I have sorted through my life. I'll admit, I haven't tried very hard to let anyone know about my struggles, and would only tell people, "I don't think you could handle being inside my head for a moment as it might make you go insane." I've always internalized everything in my life, and kept my fears from everyone, fears, hurts, pains, etc. Now, I'm ready to open my life and try to let people see what really goes on inside my head, my heart, and know the real me. However, are they ready? Are they true friends or not? Can they see past whatever conceived ideas they might have about me to discover the changes in my life now?

I'm not sure where my life is leading me these days. I have never wanted to extend my life, as I haven't liked it on many occasions throughout the years, but now I am talking with my doctor about taking HIV medications, seeking ways of improving my health, working on mending broken family ties, trying to be a concerned and honest friend, and I'm actually wanting to live. I know this thought doesn't resonate with my friends or family that have been through my life with me, however, rediscovering myself has brought about such changes in my life and how I think about myself that I'm ready to move forward into that vast unknown, not with dread of the past, but with a hope for what might be in the future.

I haven't thought very highly of myself over the last many years since I left Louisiana, because I know I wasn't following a true path, instead I was avoiding my issues by indulging in the dark side of sensual pleasures, doing drugs, and feeling sorry for myself. Even when I left Austin to go to Central America I had shut down and couldn't function, I had given up completely, ready to end it all. I couldn't find a way to forgive myself for years of neglect, pain, and avoidance. I came alive while backpacking, realized that I had the ability to do anything, learned to be open about who I was, and returned to the states a different man. At least within my own thoughts and beliefs I've changed or returned to a true path, however, others cannot see that yet.

I suppose when those that are closest to you can only see the image that has been created over the years, then it may be difficult for them to see, or accept, that there could be an altered image now. I cannot fully express the tears that fell today when I tried to talk to my best friend about the new project, and how it has been achieving something that I know is far beyond me, and seeking his advice and support, instead only receiving what I felt like was lip service. He's been my best friend for a long time now, but lately I've noticed more and more changes in our relationship, discovered what his real thoughts are about me, and have begun to question the status of our relationship. I get to see him on Wednesday and will find the words to speak with him about how I felt today.

The child within has grown up, perhaps not to full adult age, but he has grown. That lonesome, fearful, hurt, and ashamed child now seeks acceptance, forgiveness and love in a world that now seems foreign, uncertain, and challenging. Through working on the new project I've grown as well, right along with that inner child, holding hands together, and finding assurance within each other. I'm afraid, nervous, and unsure of where this new project will take me, however, I do know it's something that I cannot escape or run from at this point. It has become the one guiding factor for my existence now, that driving force, and something that isn't about me.

I've been brought to tears a lot of late, tears of joy, of amazement, of loneliness, of personal skepticism, and of fear. Other people are getting to know the person they see working on the project, that creative mind (as I've been known to be called), and they have shown such compassion, encouragement and support to rival anything I have known before. I'm sure it's the project itself and not me that draws their support, but maybe they see something deeper within myself that is only now finding it's own voice and place in the world. Whatever it is, the project or my own energy, I'm thankful for the love.

Daily doubting my own abilities and talents, I've begun to work harder to be true to myself, to speak my concerns, and to be open with people. I know I may not be the person who can carry this new project forward into the acclaim it has been receiving, but I know that I can find the people who can help it achieve it's calling. I'm going along for the ride, enjoying every minute of the refreshing atmosphere, to see where all of this will lead. Who's along for the ride with me? Who cares enough to see into the heart of a man that has long lived in fear and pain?

Welcome to my world, now you've seen what goes on inside my head all of the time, and I've only shown a portion of it here. But if anyone wants to get involved in helping me to take my project to it's next level, then please visit my project's website: www.theHIVconversation.com. Hopefully through this project we all might discover our true selves and learn to laugh, share and live openly.

By being committed to always having "The Conversation" about HIV openly and without fear, then you can help prevent the spread of HIV and help others learn more about it. Are you committed? Show your commitment by displaying the image on your Blog or website and help start a global conversation about HIV.

Empêchez la diffusion d'HIV
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En étant commis toujours à avoir « la conversation » au sujet d'HIV ouvrir et sans crainte, alors vous pouvez aider à empêcher la diffusion d'HIV et l'aide d'autres apprennent plus à son sujet. Êtes-vous commis ? Montrez votre engagement en montrant l'image sur votre Blog ou site Web et aidez à commencer une conversation globale au sujet d'HIV.

Prevenga la extensión del VIH
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Por ser confiado siempre a tener “la conversación” sobre el VIH abiertamente y sin miedo, entonces usted puede ayudar a prevenir la extensión del VIH y la ayuda otras aprende más sobre ella. ¿Usted está confiado? Demuestre su comisión exhibiendo la imagen en su Blog o Web site y ayude a comenzar una conversación global sobre el VIH.

Impedisca la diffusione del HIV
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Dal commetterti sempre ad avere “la conversazione„ circa il HIV apertamente e senza timore, allora potete contribuire ad impedire la diffusione del HIV e l'aiuto altri gli impara più. Vi commettete? Mostri il vostro impegno visualizzando l'immagine sul vostro Blog o Web site e contribuisca ad iniziare una conversazione globale circa il HIV.

Verhindern Sie die Verbreitung von HIV
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Durch am Haben „des Gespräches“ über HIV öffentlich und ohne Furcht immer festgelegt werden, dann, können Sie helfen, die Verbreitung von HIV zu verhindern und Hilfe andere erlernen mehr über sie. Werden Sie festgelegt? Zeigen Sie Ihre Verpflichtung, indem Sie das Bild auf Ihrem Blog oder Web site anzeigen und helfen Sie, ein globales Gespräch über HIV zu beginnen.

Impeça a propagação do HIV
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Sendo cometido sempre a ter “a conversação” sobre o HIV abertamente e sem medo, então você pode ajudar impedir a propagação do HIV e a ajuda outra aprende mais sobre ela. Você é cometido? Mostre seu compromisso indicando a imagem em seu Blog ou Web site e ajude-o começar uma conversação global sobre o HIV.

Förhindra spridningen av HIV
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Vid att begås till alltid att ha ”konversationen” om HIV öppet och utan skräck, därefter, kan du hjälpa att förhindra spridningen av HIV, och hjälp andra lärer mer om den. Begås du? Visa din förpliktelse, genom att visa avbilda på din Blog eller website och hjälp att starta en global konversation om HIV.

Предотвратите распространение HIV
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Путем быть порученным к всегда иметь «переговор» о HIV открыто и без страха, после этого вы можете помочь предотвратить распространение HIV и помощь другие учит больше о ей. Вы поручены? Покажите ваше принятие окончательного решения путем показ изображения на ваших Blog или web site и помогите начать глобальный переговор о HIV.

Verhinder de Verspreiding van HIV
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Door geëngageerd het zijn aan altijd het hebben van het „Gesprek“ over HIV openlijk en zonder vrees, dan kunt u helpen de verspreiding van HIV en hulp verhinderen anderen meer over het leren. Wordt u begaan? Toon uw verplichting door het beeld op uw begin van Blog te tonen of van de website en van de hulp een globaal gesprek over HIV.

منعت الانتشار ال [هيف]
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ب يكون يرتكب إلى دائما يتلقّى "المحادثة" حول [هيف] علانيّة ودون خوف, بعد ذلك أنت يستطيع ساعدت منعت الانتشار ال [هيف] ويعلم مساعدة أخرى أكثر حول هو. يكون أنت ارتكبت? أبديت تعهدك ب يعرض الصورة على ك [بلوغ] أو موقعة وساعدت بدأت محادثة شاملة حول [هيف].

Recently I had the great pleasure of backpacking through Central America. I learned a great deal about various cultures, not to mention met some incredible people from all over the world. By gaining insight into another culture we can appreciate our own more, along with learning to accept other ideas and beliefs.

L'Amérique Centrale
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Récemment j'ai eu le grand plaisir de se balader par l'Amérique Centrale. Je me suis renseigné beaucoup sur de diverses cultures, pas à la mention ai rencontré quelques personnes incroyables de partout dans le monde. En gagnant l'aperçu d'une autre culture nous pouvons apprécier nos propres davantage, avec l'étude pour accepter les autres idées et croyance.

America Central
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Tenía recientemente el gran placer de backpacking a través de America Central. Aprendí mucho sobre varias culturas, no a la mención satisfice a alguna gente increíble de por todo el mundo. Ganando la penetración en otra cultura podemos apreciar nuestros el propios más, junto con aprender aceptar las otras ideas y creencia.

L'America Centrale
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Recentemente ho avuto il piacere grande di backpacking attraverso l'America Centrale. Ho imparato molto circa le varie colture, non a menzione ho venuto a contatto di qualche gente incredibile da dappertutto. Guadagnando la visione di un'altra coltura possiamo apprezzare il nostri propri di più, con imparare accettare le altre idee e credenza.

Mittelamerika
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Vor kurzem hatte ich das große Vergnügen des Wanderns durch Mittelamerika. Ich erlernte sehr viel über verschiedene Kulturen, nicht zur Erwähnung traf einige unglaubliche Leute von auf der ganzen Erde. Indem wir Einblick in eine andere Kultur gewinnen, können wir unsere Selbst, zusammen mit dem Lernen mehr schätzen, andere Ideen und Glauben anzunehmen.

América Central
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Recentemente eu tive o prazer grande de backpacking através de América Central. Eu aprendi bastante sobre várias culturas, não ao mention encontrei-me com alguns povos incredible de pelo mundo inteiro. Ganhando a introspecção em uma outra cultura nós podemos apreciar nossos próprios mais, junto com a aprendizagem aceitar as outras idéias e opinião.

Central Amerika
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För en tid sedan hade jag det stora nöjet av att vandra till och med centralen Amerika. Lärd I ett stort avtal om olika kulturer, inte till omnämnande mötte något oerhört folk från all över världen. Genom att nå inblick in i en annan kultur, kan vi uppskatta vårt eget mer, tillsammans med att lära att acceptera andra idéer och troar.

Центральная Америка
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Недавн я имел большое удовольствие укладывать рюкзак через Центральную Америку. Я выучил много о различных культурах, не к помину встречал некоторые неимоверные людей от во всем мире. Путем приобретать проницательность в другую культуру мы можем appreciate наши больше, вместе с учить признавать другие идеи и верование.

Midden-Amerika
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Onlangs had ik het grote genoegen van het backpacking door Midden-Amerika. Ik leerde a great deal over diverse culturen, om nog te zwijgen van ontmoette sommige ongelooflijke mensen van overal ter wereld. Door inzicht in een andere cultuur te bereiken kunnen wij ons waarderen meer, samen met het leren om andere ideeën en geloven goed te keuren.

[سنترل مريك]
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مؤخّرا تلقّى أنا المتعة عظيمة من [بكبكينغ] من خلال [سنترل مريك]. أنا علمت كثيرا حول ثقافات مختلفة, لا إلى تنويه التقى بعض الناس غيرمعقول من [ألّ وفر ث وورلد]. ب يكسب تبصر داخل آخر ثقافة نحن يستطيع قدّمت نا خاصّة أكثر, مع يعلم أن يقبل أخرى أفكار وإعتقاد.

Even though it's been rough sometimes, I don't even own a car anymore. Instead, I travel on foot or on my bicycle. I've found that I stay in better health, have reduced emissions, save on the use of plastics because I put everything in my backpack, and I feel better all the way around.

I just wish more cities had bike lanes so it wouldn't be rough riding along the side of the road.

Montez un vélo
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Quoiqu'il ait été rugueux parfois, je ne possède plus même une voiture. Au lieu de cela, je voyage à pied ou sur ma bicyclette. J'ai constaté que je reste dans une meilleure santé, ai réduit des émissions, économiser sur l'utilisation des plastiques parce que je mets tout dans mon baluchon, et je sens mieux toute manière autour.

Je souhaite juste que plus de villes aient eu des ruelles de vélo ainsi ce ne serait pas équitation approximative le long du côté de la route.

Monte una bici
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Aun cuando ha sido áspero a veces, yo incluso no posee un coche más. En lugar, viajo a pie o en mi bicicleta. He encontrado que permanezco en una salud mejor, he reducido emisiones, excepto en el uso de plásticos porque pongo todo en mi petate, y me siento mejor hasta el final alrededor.

Apenas deseo que más ciudades tenían carriles de la bici así que no sería montar a caballo áspero a lo largo del lado del camino.

Guidi una bici
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Anche se è stato di massima a volte, neppure non possederò un automobile più. Invece, viaggio a piedi o sulla mia bicicletta. Ho trovato che rimango nella salute migliore, ho ridotto le emissioni, risparmi sull'uso della plastica perché metto tutto in mio fagotto e ritengo più meglio tutto il senso intorno.

Desidero appena che più città hanno avute vicoli della bici in modo da non sarebbe riding approssimativo lungo il lato della strada.

Reiten Sie ein Fahrrad
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Obwohl es manchmal rauh gewesen ist, besitze ich nicht sogar ein Auto mehr. Stattdessen reise ich auf Fuß oder auf mein Fahrrad. Ich habe, daß ich in der besseren Gesundheit bleibe, habe verringert Emissionen, außer auf dem Gebrauch des Plastiks gefunden, weil ich alles in meinen Rucksack einsetze, und ich fühle vollständig herum besser.

Ich wünsche gerade, daß mehr Städte Fahrradwege hatten, also es nicht rauhes Reiten entlang der Seite der Straße sein würde.

Monte uma bicicleta
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Mesmo que seja áspero às vezes, eu não possuo mesmo um carro anymore. Instead, eu viajo no pé ou em minha bicicleta. Eu encontrei que eu permaneço na saúde melhor, reduzi emissões, excepto no uso dos plásticos porque eu ponho tudo em meu backpack, e eu sinto mais melhor toda a maneira ao redor.

Eu desejo apenas que mais cidades tiveram pistas da bicicleta assim que não seria equitação áspera ao longo do lado da estrada.

Rida en cykel
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Även om det har varit grovt ibland, äger jag inte ens en bil anymore. I stället reser jag på fot eller på min cykel. Jag har funnit att I-staget i bättre vård-, har förminskat utsläpp, räddning på bruket av plast-, därför att jag satte allt i min ryggsäck, och den bättre I-känselförnimmelsen hela vägen omkring.

Hade rättvis wish I mer städer cykellanes, så den skulle för att inte vara den grova ridningen längs sidan av vägen.

Те велосипед
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Даже если оно грубо иногда, я даже не буду иметь автомобиль больше. Вместо, я перемещаю on foot или на мой велосипед. Я находил что я остаюсь в более лучшем здоровье, уменьшал излучения, за исключением на пользы пластмасс потому что я кладу все в мой backpack, и я чувствую более лучшим полностью вокруг.

Я как раз желаю больше городов имели майны bike поэтому не было грубым riding вдоль стороны дороги.

Berijd een Fiets
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Alhoewel het soms ruw is geweest, meer bezit ik zelfs geen auto. In plaats daarvan, reis ik te voet of op mijn fiets. Ik heb dat ik in betere gezondheid blijf, heb verminderd emissies, be*sparen op het gebruik van plastieken geconstateerd omdat ik alles in mijn rugzak zette, en ik voel rond beter al manier.

Ik wens enkel dit meer steden fietsstegen hadden zodat zou het niet het ruwe berijden langs de kant van de weg zijn.

ركبت دراجة
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[إفن ثوو] هو قد كان خشنة أحيانا, يمتلك أنا لا حتّى سيارة بعد الآن. بدلا من ذلك, يسافر أنا [أن فووت] أو على دراجتي. أنا قد أسّست أنّ يبقى أنا في صحة جيّدة, يقلّد إذاعات, باستثناء على الإستعمال البلاستيك لأنّ أنا أضع كلّ شيء في حمولت ظهريّةي, وأنا أشعر على نحو أفضل [ألّ ث] طريق حوالي.

أنا فقط أتمنّى تلقّى كثير مدائن دراجة دروب لذلك هو لم [ب] عمليّة تتبّع خشنة على طول الجانب من الطريق.

I’ve found that when I live by goals that I set myself up for failure, because then there is a concrete aspect of my life that has to reach it’s end. Which, for me, caused stress and a concern for not being able to achieve things. However, when I started living my life through intentions, rather than goals, then I discovered I was free to live life in the moment and follow the path the universe was showing. I’ve found this to be less stressful, more exciting, and with a greater appreciation of what can be. For through intentions, which will always be present, I can take the scenic route in life and still achieve the things I’ve wanted to do, but now with more enjoyment.

My intentions are to continue developing the book and film project I’m working on called “The Conversation”. It all started out quite easily and I never expected it to achieve it’s current status, however, I’m very thankful that it has grown into something greater than I could have hoped for. Within this aspect are the other intentions that were derived from this project, such as the intention to talk freely with people about my HIV status, the intention to support others with HIV, the intention to encourage others to speak openly about HIV and AIDS, the intention to live a more meaningful life, and the intention to respect others.

Buts ou intentions
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J'ai constaté que quand je vis à côté des buts que je m'établis pour l'échec, parce qu'alors il y a un aspect concret de ma vie qui doit l'atteindre est extrémité. Ce qui, pour moi, a causé l'effort et un souci pour ne pas pouvoir réaliser des choses. Cependant, quand j'ai commencé à vivre ma vie par des intentions, plutôt que des buts, alors j'ai découvert que j'étais libre pour vivre la vie dans le moment et suivre le chemin que l'univers montrait. J'ai trouvé ceci pour être moins stressant, plus passionnant, et avec une plus grande appréciation de ce qui peut être. Pour les intentions traversantes, qui seront toujours présentes, je peux prendre l'itinéraire scénique dans la vie et réaliser toujours les choses que j'ai a voulu faire, mais maintenant avec plus de plaisir.

Mes intentions sont de continuer de développer le projet de livre et de film que je travaille à appelé « la conversation ». Il tout a commencé dehors tout à fait facilement et je n'ai jamais prévu que ce pour le réaliser est état actuel, cependant, je suis très reconnaissant pour lequel ce s'est développé dans quelque chose de plus grand que moi pourrait avoir espéré. Dans cet aspect sont les autres intentions qui ont été dérivées de ce projet, tel que l'intention de parler librement avec des personnes au sujet de mon statut d'HIV, l'intention de soutenir d'autres avec HIV, l'intention d'encourager d'autres à parler ouvrir au sujet d'HIV et du SIDA, l'intention de vivre une vie plus signicative, et l'intention de respecter d'autres.

Metas o intenciones
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He encontrado que cuando vivo por metas que me instalo para la falta, porque entonces hay un aspecto concreto de mi vida que tenga que alcanzarlo es extremo. Cuál, para mí, causó la tensión y una preocupación por no poder alcanzar cosas. Sin embargo, cuando comencé a vivir mi vida con intenciones, más bien que las metas, entonces descubrí que estaba libre vivir vida en el momento y seguir la trayectoria que el universo demostraba. He encontrado esto para ser menos agotador, más emocionante, y con un mayor aprecio de qué puede ser. Para las intenciones directas, que estarán siempre presentes, puedo tomar la ruta escénica en vida y todavía alcanzar las cosas que tengo deseó hacer, pero ahora con más disfrute.

Mis intenciones son continuar desarrollando el proyecto del libro y de la película que estoy trabajando en llamado “la conversación”. Comenzó todo hacia fuera absolutamente fácilmente y nunca esperé que para alcanzarlo sea estado actual, sin embargo, soy muy agradecido para quien ha crecido en algo mayor que yo habría podido esperar. Dentro de este aspecto están las otras intenciones que fueron derivadas de este proyecto, tal como la intención de hablar libremente con la gente sobre mi estado del VIH, la intención de apoyar otras con el VIH, la intención de animar a otras que hablen abiertamente sobre el VIH y el SIDA, la intención de vivir una vida más significativa, y la intención de respetar otras.

Obiettivi o intenzioni
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Ho trovato che quando vivo dagli obiettivi che mi installo per guasto, perché allora ci è una funzione concreta della mia vita che deve raggiungerla è estremità. Quale, per me, ha causato lo sforzo e una preoccupazione per non potere realizzare le cose. Tuttavia, quando ho cominciato vivere la mia vita con le intenzioni, piuttosto che obiettivi, allora ho scoperto che ero libero vivere vita nel momento e seguire il percorso l'universo stava mostrando. Ho trovato questo per essere meno stressante, più emozionante e con un apprezzamento più grande di che cosa può essere. Per le intenzioni dirette, che saranno sempre presenti, posso prendere l'itinerario scenico nella vita ed ancora realizzare le cose che ho ha desiderato fare, ma ora con più godimento.

Le mie intenzioni sono continuare a sviluppare il progetto che della pellicola e del libro sto lavorando al chiamato a “la conversazione„. Interamente ha cominciato abbastanza facilmente fuori e non ho previsto mai che per realizzarlo fosse stato attuale, tuttavia, sono molto thankful che si è sviluppato in qualche cosa di più grande di io potrei sperare per. All'interno di questa funzione sono le altre intenzioni che sono state derivate da questo progetto, quali l'intenzione di comunicare liberamente con la gente circa la mia condizione del HIV, l'intenzione di sostenere altre con il HIV, l'intenzione di consigliare ad altre parlare apertamente del HIV e del AIDS, l'intenzione di vivere una vita più espressiva e l'intenzione di rispettare altre.

Ziele oder Absichten
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Ich habe gefunden, daß, wenn ich durch Ziele lebe, daß ich mich für Ausfall aufstelle, weil dann es gibt, ist ein konkreter Aspekt meines Lebens, das ihn erreichen muß, Ende. Welches, für mich, Druck und ein Interesse für In der Lage sein nicht, Sachen zu erzielen verursachte. Jedoch als ich anfing, mein Leben durch Absichten zu leben, anstatt Ziele, dann entdeckte ich, daß ich frei war, zu leben Leben im Moment und dem Weg folgen, den das Universum sich zeigte. Ich habe dieses gefunden, um zu sein weniger stressvoll, aufregender und mit einer grösseren Anerkennung von, was sein kann. Für durchgehende Absichten die immer anwesend sind, kann ich den szenischen Weg im Leben nehmen und die Sachen noch zu erzielen, die ich habe, wollte, aber jetzt mit mehr Genuß tun.

Meine Absichten sind das, Buch- und Filmprojekt zu entwickeln fortzufahren, das ich auf benannt „das Gespräch“ bearbeite. Es begann ganz heraus ziemlich leicht und ich erwartete nie, daß es, zum es zu erzielen gegenwärtiger Status ist, jedoch ich, der er in etwas gewachsen ist, das grösser ist, als ich könnte für gehofft haben sehr dankbar bin. Innerhalb dieses Aspekts sind die anderen Absichten, die von diesem Projekt, wie der Absicht, mit Leuten über meinen HIV Status frei zu sprechen, der Absicht, andere mit HIV zu stützen, der Absicht, andere anzuregen, über HIV und AIDS öffentlich zu sprechen, der Absicht, zu leben ein sinnvolleres Leben und der Absicht, andere zu respektieren abgeleitet wurden.

Objetivos ou intenções
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Eu encontrei que quando eu vivo por objetivos que eu me ajusto myself acima para a falha, porque então há um aspecto concreto de minha vida que tem que o alcançar é extremidade. Qual, para mim, causou o stress e um interesse para não poder conseguir coisas. Entretanto, quando eu comecei viver minha vida com as intenções, melhor que objetivos, então eu descobri que eu estava livre viver vida no momento e para seguir o trajeto que o universo mostrava. Eu encontrei este para ser mais menos stressful, mais emocionante, e com uma apreciação mais grande de o que pode ser. Para as intenções diretas, que estarão sempre atuais, eu posso fazer exame da rota scenic na vida e conseguir ainda as coisas que eu tenho quis fazer, mas agora com mais apreciação.

Minhas intenções são continuar desenvolvendo o projeto que do livro e da película eu estou trabalhando no chamado “a conversação”. Começou toda para fora completamente fàcilmente e eu nunca esperei que para o conseguir é status atual, entretanto, eu sou muito thankful que cresceu em algo mais grande do que mim poderia ter esperado para. Dentro deste aspecto estão as outras intenções que foram derivadas deste projeto, tal como a intenção falar livremente com os povos sobre meu status do HIV, a intenção suportar outras com HIV, a intenção incentivar outras falar abertamente sobre o HIV e o AIDS, a intenção viver uma vida mais significativa, e a intenção respeitar outras.

Mål eller avsikter
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Jag har funnit att, när jag bor vid mål som I-uppsättningen jag själv upp för fel, därför att det finns därefter en hårdnaaspekt av mitt liv, som måste att nå, det är avslutar. Vilket för mig, orsakade spänning och ett bekymmer för att inte vara kompetent att uppnå saker. Emellertid, då jag startade att bo mitt liv till och med avsikter, i stället för mål, därefter upptäckte jag att jag var fri att bo liv i ögonblicket och att följa banan universum var visningen. Jag har funnit denna för att vara mindre stressig, mer spännande, och med en mer större gillande av vad kan vara. För through avsikter som ska, var alltid närvarande, kan jag ta den sceniska rutten i liv, och stillbilden uppnår saker som jag har önskade att göra, men nu med mer njutning.

Min avsikter är att fortsätta framkalla boka, och att filma projektera I-förmiddagarbetet på kallat ”konversationen”. Det startade all ut ganska lätt, och jag förväntade aldrig att det som uppnår det är strömstatus, emellertid, den mycket tacksamma I-förmiddagen, som den har fullvuxet in i något som är mer stor, än mig kunde ha hoppas för. Inom denna aspekt är BISTÅR de andra avsikterna, som härleddes från denna projekterar, liksom avsikten att tala fritt med folk om min HIV-status, avsikten att stötta andra med HIV, avsikten att uppmuntra andra att tala öppet om HIV, och, avsikten att bo ett mer meningsfull liv och avsikten till respekt andra.

Цели или намерия
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Я находил что когда я живу целями что я устанавливаю вверх для отказа, потому что после этого конкретным аспектом моей жизни которая должна достигнуть его будет конец. , Для меня, причинило усилие и заботу для не мочь достигнуть вещей. Однако, когда я начал жить моя жизнь через намерия, rather than цели, после этого я открыл я было свободно жить жизнь в моменте и последовать за курсом, котор вселенный показывала. Я находил это для того чтобы быть более менее stressful, excitingее, и с большим благодарностью может быть. Для сквозных намерий, которые всегда будут, я могу принять сценарную трассу в жизни и все еще достигнуть вещей, котор я имею хотел сделать, но теперь с больше наслаждения.

Моими намериями будут продолжать начать проект книги, котор и пленки я работаю на после того как я вызван «переговором». Оно совсем начало вне довольно легко и я никогда не предпологал, котор нужно достигнуть его будет в настоящее время состоянием, однако, я очень thankful которого он вырос в что-то greater than мной смог понадеяться для. В пределах этого аспекта находятся другие намерия были выведены от этого проекта, such as намерие разговаривать свободно с людьми о моем состоянии HIV, намерие поддержать другие с HIV, намерие ободрить другие поговорить открыто о HIV и AIDS, намерие жить более содержательная жизнь, и намерие уважать другие.

Doelstellingen of Bedoelingen
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Ik heb geconstateerd dat wanneer ik van doelstellingen leef die ik zelf voor mislukking opzette, omdat dan er zijn is een concreet aspect van mijn leven dat moet bereiken het eind. Welke, voor me, spanning en een zorg voor het kunnen geen dingen bereiken veroorzaakte. Nochtans, toen ik begon mijn leven door bedoelingen, eerder dan doelstellingen te leven, dan ontdekte ik ik kon te leven en het leven in het ogenblik de weg te volgen het heelal toonde. Ik heb minder zwaar dit om gevonden te zijn, opwekkend, en met een grotere appreciatie van wat kan zijn. Voor door bedoelingen, die altijd aanwezig zullen zijn, kan ik de toneelroute in het leven nemen en nog de dingen bereiken die ik heb willen om, maar nu met meer plezier doen.

Mijn bedoelingen moeten blijven ontwikkelend het boek en filmproject ik aan geroepen het „Gesprek“ werk. Het allen begon vrij gemakkelijk en ik dacht nooit het om te bereiken het huidige status, echter is, ik zeer dankbaar ben die het in iets groter heeft gekweekt dan ik kon gehoopt hebben voor. Binnen dit is aspect de andere bedoelingen die werden afgeleid uit dit project, zoals de bedoeling om vrij met mensen over mijn HIV status te spreken, de bedoeling om anderen met HIV te steunen, de bedoeling om anderen aan te moedigen om openlijk over HIV en AIDS te spreken, de bedoeling te leven het zinvoller leven, en de bedoeling om anderen te eerbiedigen.

أهداف أو نيات
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أنا قد أسّست أنّ عندما يعيش أنا بأهداف أنّ أنا أثبتبنفسي فوق لإخفاق, لأنّ بعد ذلك هناك يكون مظهر مادّيّة من حياتي أنّ يضطرّ بلغت هو نهاية. أيّ, ل ي, سبّب إجهاد واهتمام ل لا [ب] يمكن أن يحقّق أشياء. مهما, عندما بدأ أنا يعيش حياتي من خلال نيات, [رثر ثن] أهداف, بعد ذلك أنا اكتشفت أنا كنت حرّة أن يعيش حياة في العزم وتبعت الممر الكون كان أبدى. أنا قد أسّست هذا أن يكون أقلّ ضاغطة, أكثر مثيرة, ومع تقدير عظيمة من ماذا يستطيع كنت. لنيات مباشرة, أيّ دائما سيكون حاضرة, أنا يستطيع أخذت الطريق مشهديّة في حياة وبعد كان حقّقت الأشياء أنا قد أراد أن يتمّ, غير أنّ الآن مع كثير استمتاع.

نياتي أن يستمرّ يطوّر الكتاب وفيلم مشروع أنا أكون أعمل على يدعو "المحادثة". هو جميعا بدأ خارجا الى حدّ بعيد بسهولة وتوقّع أنا أبدا هو أن يحقّق هو [كرّنت ستتثس], مهما, أنا جدّا شاكرة أنّ هو قد نما داخل شيء [غرت ثن] أنا استطاع يتلقّى أملت ل. ضمن هذا مظهر الأخرى نيات أنّ كان استنتجت من هذا مشروع, مثل النية أن يتحدّث بحرّيّة مع الناس حول ي [هيف] وضع, النية أن يساند أخرى مع [هيف], النية أن يشجّع أخرى أن يتكلّم علانيّة حول [هيف] و [أيدس], النية أن يعيش أكثر حياة ذو معنى, والنية أن يحترم أخرى.